~SONG OF THE DAY: "To The Beat Of Our Noisy Hearts" by MATT NATHANSON~

Saddest thing ever, I swear. I was reading my OLD xanga entries... you know.. the ones from my "Blue Period" and I realized... DAMN! I sounded so much more interesting and full of energy. Crazies are just more interesting. Honestly, I think it's just that trying to get happy has drains the life out of people. It's so much work!

Have you noticed how boring we've all gotten. I look at myself and friends and i've realized, we're so dull now. Most of us don't even put the effort forward to even make Instant messanger conversations interesting.

Where is it written that after a certain age with have to let adulthood suck the fun out through our ears?

You know what I miss? I miss sounding like an idiot! I miss thinking that going to the movies is the cooliest. I miss hanging out at the mall without any money and walking down to the gas station cause I didn't have a license.

I miss when being an adult sounded like an adventure and blasting the radio behind my bedroom door when I got angry.

Mostly, I miss how fun it was to just do the simple things, like play a scary video game with the  lights out and a handfull of friends.

When I visited California last October, I was talking to Natalie's little sister Sophia and she was talking about how she was going to get something (cellphone, I think) when she was a little older.. and I found myself telling her to enjoy being young, cause she has the rest of her life to get older. Now, I realize how old I really think now. That's HORRIBLE!

I hearby decide that being old sucks, I'm going to be young again. XD

~SONG OF THE DAY: "Squeeze me" by KRAAK & SMAAK~

Earlier this week I was searching the internet for any last minute extra presents or stocking stuffers that might work for Christmas. And as I search Ebay for the millionth time and compared prices with Amazon on some earrings... I stopped... and thought... What am I doing?!

I'm done shopping, i've gotten a bunch of gifts wrapped and ready to go! I've overstuffed almost everyones stocking already. I've spent atleast $30 on stocking scratch cards alone!

Why am I looking for more? We have enough!

That's when it hit me... someone out there doesn't. So, I redirected my search to everywhere I could think of... Craigslist, google, toys for tots, I searched it all! But I didn't want to get a picture with Santa for a gift (toys for tots) I wanted to know the name of the kid getting the present. I wanted to start a tradition for Chance and me to do every Christmas. I wanted to go shopping with that child in mind and buy for them like I buy for my own family every year!

Finally I came across the local mall's events calender. The Salvation Army had a table set up in North Star Mall and they only had a couple days left until the deadline for gifts! (Dec 14th). So, as soon as Chance woke up, I hauled us down to the mall.

Looking through the more than a dozen children still left to get presents... I had the best idea ever!

Chance is about 1, only a couple months over, and there were two little babies his same age. A little girl and a little boy. So, I took them both and went to Target. $62, 2 hours, and four presents later I was on my way home with a slightly grumpy baby and a New Tradition.

Now, my son might be too young to really understand what's going on, actually, the he probably only understands that he's hungry and there's a lot of people, noise, and bright lights. But, I hope that when he's older he'll understand it more and more every year. I want Chance to learn there's more to life than getting something in return for what you do, that sometimes, giving is the best feeling in the world (cause God knows, there's nothing I like better than giving the perfect gift).

So, I've decided... that every year, when it gets close to Christmas, i'm going to take Chance down to North Star Mall with me (or where ever the Salvation Army has it set up where ever we're living) and we're going to pick out 1 or 2 kids, around his age, to give a present to that year. Who knows, maybe it'll be little Valerie and Matthew every year, that'd be wonderful. =]

Here's to Family and New traditions.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

One. The constitution says nothing about marriage.

There for, nothing about marriage can be unconstitutional.

"Marriage has a long history in the religious world. It has become so ingrained in the social fabric of the people of the nation, and indeed of the world, that the benefits of marriage to society at large became apparent."

Making it so that religious groups are forced into accepting same-sex marriage that is against their religion is unconstitutional. The constitution states that there is a seperation of church and state, meaning that state has to keep themselves out of religion just as much as religion has to stay out of state. Passing prop 8 would have forced religion to accept gay and lesbian marriages are legal and thus, they would have had to perform them because not doing so would have gone against it.

This not directed towards any one religious group, but ALL religious groups that oppose same-sex marriage. (yes, i've noticed the extremely insulting and prejudice posts and comments against the mormon religion especially.)

Two. Voting is a formal expression of preference for a candidate for office or for a proposed resolution of an issue.

Basicly, whatever you feel is right, you have the right to vote for! No one can tell you what to vote for, everyone has their right to express their preference through voting! Millions exercise this right, no one can change your vote but you. If you're a legal resident, registered, and old enough then you can vote!

“The will of the people shall be the basis of the authority of government; this will shall be expressed in periodic and genuine elections which shall be by universal and equal suffrage and shall be held by secret ballot or by equivalent free voting procedures."

Three. There is a bias in the entertainment world.

Only fools live their lifes on what celebrities say. Celebrities ask us to vote a certain way or donate to causes. Think about this, If celebrities donated one paycheck from one film or one years income each to feed hungry children around the world, how many hungry children do you think there'd be? Considering that even the lower paid celebrities (people you recognize when you see their face) get paid between 5 million to 13 million a year.

And although you hear celebrities opposing prop 8, they aren't backing it. Why? because if a celebrity backs it, it could mean career suicide.

The same as, if you've read Myspace, Facebook, or even Xanga.. the advertised groups, posts, or sites are all pro-homosexual marriage. So, chances are you won't see this post on the top of any lists.